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| 12:43am 13/08/2008 |
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mood:  crushed
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Ok after much sole searching and much debate I have come to the realization that I am NOT going to be able to leave my current Living conditions for any time in the near and immediate time,
this is in part due to the fact that if I leave I am not just changing my life but harming 8 other people in the process
I know that this is going to upset some of you but i do not have a large amount of lee way in this mater
most of the reason is fanatical but it is unfortunately my life.
I was truly looking forward to moving and getting on with my life but i do not think this will happen. |
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| grumples |
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| 10:36am 22/05/2008 |
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mood:  aggravated
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I am really starting to hate the fact that not one of my customers whant to talk to me about there computers, they all go strait to my step dad it is just getting agervating to me its liike what you cant fix my computer only he can not you . you cant do jack it just realy starting to piss me off. |
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| one week to go |
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| 07:59pm 18/04/2008 |
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mood:  anxious
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well its one week till i get to go get my sweetie and i am so looking forward to it
though i will be a mess with all the cleanign i am going to be doing betewwen now and then
i am realy starting to miss her though and hope that this weekend is the best for both of us |
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| Grr green |
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| 04:30pm 12/04/2008 |
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mood:  envious
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I never thought i would ever get envious of any one but right now i am kinda green becuse my friends get to sppend more time with my GF than i do and then to top it of my bro has his girl ver this week end grrrr agian
i had forgoten how i can be when i miss some one i care deeply for and dont get to see her that often.
i am realy missing her this wekend but i hope that she is having fun |
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| The LOooooong ride back |
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| 08:22am 03/04/2008 |
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mood:  morose
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well i went home today :( had fun beyond belife over the last week and a half but now i am home and all i whant to do is go back and crawl in to her arms and laythere hoping it will not end but no i had to be strong one i had to come home i realy whant to kick myself for that but now i have a defintive goal to get out of here and to get her into my life permnetly where i do not have to alsmost break down into tears over the fact that i had to go home or that i aalready miss her and her warmth opon me i am truly missing her already and its been less than 4 hours since i have left her i truly hope that the feelings are mutal and that i am truly blessed with her light in my life for now and for the future.
its been 3 hours since i saw her and i still miss her |
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| I am doomemd , doomed i tell ya |
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| 02:15pm 29/03/2008 |
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mood:  touched
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I saw her again last night and now this am all i can do is whant to hold her in my arms and just be with her i already miss her and i am looking so forward to the next time i see her. It has been a long time since i have felt this way about any one and i am loving it but it also makes me sad that i know i must go home and be away from her in a few days i truely wish that i did not but tjis give me even more insitive to get my life in gear an get out of the holding pattern that my life is currently in. |
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| Ok its been a good amount of time |
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| 05:51pm 27/03/2008 |
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mood:  nerdy
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Where to start .......
oh i know , I meet the most wonderfull person at frolic con, that so far i have spent the last week with falling for her madly i mean it been only 3 hours since she had to go home and i alraedy miss her, this is scarry for me i have not been this taken by some one for a long time and i am truly afraid of messing it up , that and i have to go back home in the next few days also realy hurts but it is added insitive to get my self out of the current quagmire that i am in.
Ben missing her for less than a day |
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| still Pissed |
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| 11:22pm 06/09/2006 |
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mood: pissed off
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Well i have talked to my boss there reseon for not giving me any raise is "Wel you have the lowest review so thus even though you are preforming as expexted you are not getinng a raise."
But then they are please dont quit on us "we think you are a valuble member of the team "
What the HEll i am i to think.
Any one????? |
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| i love these good drugs |
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| 10:28pm 04/04/2006 |
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mood:  optimistic
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wow i have not been able to awalk in a week go to the doctor pay 2.28 next day able to walk with some pain but still able to walk man i love modern medicen |
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| I hate this crap |
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| 04:36am 29/11/2005 |
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mood:  sick music: work crap
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Well it official i am sick as a dog i at work sivering huddled over the laminator bcuse it has heat (they still have the ac on and i feel absoluly rechead.
in other new my roomie has managed to fully piss me off with the bus situation the bigest reson i left Ca las time was the 12 hour work days the bus here sucks it is not layed out with any fore thought. so now i am sick have to take the bus home and hateing this crap |
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| 06:11am 15/11/2005 |
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mood:  angry music: Musiac (at Work)
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well i have relized why the fuck i left here without telling any one last time and now it worse becuse i fell honor bound to stay for at least a while .
the reson is my roomie/friend is a contoling, egotistiucal maniac who has no ambitions but to make the lives of thouse around him misserable as he seams to be.
i know i dont have much of a life but at least i try not to fouster it onto my freinds and what not.
so i have made a desion one way or the other i am leaving here with a quickness as soon as i can
till then i have to grind my teeth and wait it out
(SOOO Kitty whats the rent like out there ????????????) |
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| It's Official |
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| 04:14pm 02/11/2005 |
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mood: melancholy
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Well the world hands me another one.
eHarmony is based upon a complex matching system developed through extensive research with married couples. One of the requirements for successful matching is that participants to fall within certain defined profiles. If we find that we will not be able to match a user using these profiles, we feel it is only fair to inform them early in the process.
We are so convinced of the importance of creating compatible matches to help people establish happy, lasting relationships that we sometimes choose not to provide service rather than risk an uncertain match.
Unfortunately, we are not able to make our profiles work for you. Our matching model could not accurately predict with whom you would be best matched. This occurs for about 20% of potential users, so 1 in 5 people simply will not benefit from our service. We hope that you understand, and we regret our inability to provide service for you at this time.
Mind you they did say this about me
# You tend to dislike sudden or abrupt changes. You prefer things the way they are. Your motto might be: "If it's not broken, don't fix it."
# Others may perceive you as being undemonstrative and self-controlled. Not wanting to be the center of attention, you generally support others.
# You prefer a warm, friendly environment free of conflict and hostility. In that environment, you prefer reassurance of your involvement and self-worth.
# You have a basic need to be supportive of others. You will agree with others, sometimes even if it's not what you really want.
# You may demonstrate positive possessiveness by developing strong attachments; however, you will not be overly involved as some others tend to do.
# You tend to be a traditionalist, and will enjoy the social environment best if it is stable and predictable. You dislike sudden decisions about where to go or what to do, preferring to think things out first.
# You are a good friend and are always willing to help those you consider to be your friends. You also show strong ties, and will be uncomfortable when separated from your friends for an extended period.
# Because of your lenient and complacent nature, others with fewer scruples may take advantage of you. You could, perhaps, benefit from greater assertiveness.
# You show self-control in most things you do; you are not an extremist. Others may see you as stable, mature and steadfast.
# You tend to be loyal to others. Your loyalty shows in a variety of ways including your "staying power" with relationships and activities.
# In your group, you may support the group leader rather than vie for a leadership position yourself. As a result, the group leader will usually appreciate the support you bring.
# You may be less talkative than some others, but people will generally know how you are feeling by observing many nonverbal cues.
# In communicating with others, you may support the mainstream ideas rather than new trailblazing activities. You may prefer the stable and traditional activities.
# You tend to be a good listener. Others may seek you out to share a thought or concern because of your empathic listening style.
# You have a communications style which many people are comfortable with almost immediately. You are sincere, a good listener, not pushy and overall a comfortable person to be near.
# You are somewhat reserved in meeting new people. As a result, you could benefit from more assertive people doing the appropriate introductions to new people.
# Others will notice that you are a sincere person about what you say and do. This trait, along with the excellent listening skills, creates an individual whom most people find pleasant to be with and a calming type of person.
# You tend to internalize conflict. As a result, if something about another is bothering you, you may bottle-up feelings and keep them inside.
# You are generally very patient with people.
# You are good at helping others to reach their goals.
# You take pride in being very loyal to friends and family.
# You are excellent at listening to the concerns and ideas of others.
# You are good at reconciling (i.e. you don't like to sulk after a conflict is resolved).
# You are good at considering information from all sides of an issue before making a decision.
# You tend to work hard at making sure that other people are happy.
# You don't tend to get distracted by superficial issues.
# You are very sincere in actions and words.
# You are a dependable and caring partner.
# You tend to be an objective decision-maker, preferring not to let undue emotions bias your decisions.
# You are very supportive of other people.
You may want:
* Activities which you can start and finish.
* Protection or insulation from aggression or confrontation.
* A feeling of security.
* Activities that may involve friends.
* Clear responsibility and clear lines of who makes decisions.
* Scheduled activities with no haphazard or unplanned activity.
* To feel safe and secure in social situations.
* Recognition for your loyalty.
* Status quo.
* Security for now, and in the future.
Now i have to ask is this a bad person What is wrong with me. |
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| 05:52pm 27/10/2005 |
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Outcast Genius
60 % Nerd, 78% Geek, 56% Dork | For The Record:
A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.
A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.
A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.
You scored better than half in all three, earning you the title of: Outcast Genius.
Outcast geniuses usually are bright enough to understand what society
wants of them, and they just don't care! They are highly intelligent
and passionate about the things they know are *truly* important in the
world. Typically, this does not include sports, cars or make-up, but it
can on occassion (and if it does then they know more than all of their
friends combined in that subject).
Outcast geniuses can be very lonely, due to their being
outcast from most normal groups and too smart for the room among many
other types of dorks and geeks, but they can also be the types to
eventually rule the world, ala Bill Gates, the prototypical Outcast
Genius.
Congratulations!
Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in any of the following:
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Professional Wrestling
Love & Sexuality
America/Politics
Thanks Again! -- THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST |  |
My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 51% on nerdiness | | You scored higher than 98% on geekosity | | You scored higher than 95% on dork points |
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| 05:44pm 27/10/2005 |
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Enthusiast
You scored 76% Experience, 75% Adventurousness, 77% Kinkyness, and 76% Corrupt! |
You are not afraid to experiment, in fact you thrive on it. You are
always looking for what else there is to experience. You enjoy pushing
yourself. You enjoy your journey to sexual discovery and wont let
anyone steer you from it.
Please remember to rank my test. Thank You |  |
My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 99% on Experience | | You scored higher than 94% on Adventurousness | | You scored higher than 95% on Kinkyness | | You scored higher than 99% on Corruption |
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| well at lest they mctch |
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| 07:57am 25/10/2005 |
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mood:  cold music: Crap
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| Your Hair Should Be Purple | 
Intense, thoughtful, and unconventional.
You're always philosophizing and inspiring others with your insights. |
| Your Blog Should Be Purple | 
You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything.
You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey.
You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say. |
| In a Past Life... | 
You Were: A Redhead Spice Trader.
Where You Lived: Egypt.
How You Died: Dysentery. |
| Your Blogging Type Is the Private Performer | 
Your blog is your stage - with your visitors your adoring fans.
At least, that's how you write with your witty one liners.
And while you like attention, you value your privacy.
You're likely to have an anonymous blog - or turn off comments. |
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Guardian (SJ)
You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented.
Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules.
You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader.
You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you.
A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do.
You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up.
In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly.
At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions.
With others, you tend to be polite and formal.
As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself.
On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them! |
| You Are Italian Food | 
Comforting yet overwhelming.
People love you, but sometimes you're just too much. |
| Slow and Steady | 
Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it. |
FEEL THE POWER
Your Daddy Is Darth Vader
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What You Call Him: Papi
Why You Love Him: He takes you to Disneyland
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An Now We KNow
| You Should Get a JD (Juris Doctor) | 
You're logical, driven, and ruthless.
You'd make a mighty fine lawyer. |
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| 05:47pm 21/10/2005 |
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You fit in with:
Atheism
Your ideals mostly resemble those of an Atheist. You have very little faith and you are very focused on intellectual endeavors. You value objective proof over intuition or subjective thoughts. You enjoy talking about ideas and tend to have a lot of in depth conversations with people.
70% scientific.
60% reason-oriented.
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